Isang Alay


‘Unable to pay tuition, UPM freshie commits suicide’

Hindi kita kilala,
hindi ko nakita ang iyong mukha
or narinig ang iyong mga paniniwala
pero nang nalaman ko ang
balita na hindi mo na kinaya,
isang munting bahagi ng
aking kamalayan ay gumuho
dahil nabawasan ang ating
lumiliit na lipi
ng mga interesado
sa
Tao

At bakit siya gumagawa
ng kasaysayan para lamang
kalimutan

At bakit siya gumagawa
ng mga mito para mapanatili
lamang ang sanidad

At bakit sila gumagawa
ng sining at digmaan

At bakit hindi nila
matangap na kailangan
nila ang isa’t isa.

At bakit niya ginagawa
ang mga ginagawa niya

maraming
nalungkot, naiyak,
nagalit, natakot
at hindi kaya ng
aking tula nabigyan
silang lahat ng tinig.
Paumanhin pero
mas mabuti nang hindi
ko subukang makipagsabayan
sa mga taong paparatangan kang

sira-ulo,
kulang ng pananampalataya,
walang tiwala sa sarili,
duwag,
dahil pinili mong iwanan
ang mundong minsan
mong pinangarap
na pag-aralan,
tulungan,
at baguhin.

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photo credits: http://www.rappler.com/move-ph/23894-up-student-kills-self-unpaid-tuition

One might say that the ancient right to take life or let live was replaced by a power to foster life or disallow it to the point of death. This is perhaps what explains that disqualification of death which marks the recent wane of the rituals that accompanied it. That death is so carefully evaded is linked less to a new anxiety which makes death unbearable for our societies than to the fact that the procedures of power have not ceased to turn away from death. In the passage from this world to the other, death was the manner in which a terrestrial sovereignty was relieved by another, singularly more powerful sovereignty; the pageantry that surrounded it was in the category of political ceremony. Now it is over life, throughout its unfolding, that power establishes its dominion; death is power’s limit, the moment that escapes it; death becomes the most secret aspect of existence, the most “private.” It is not surprising that suicide-once a crime, since it was a way to usurp the power of death which the sovereign alone, whether the one here below or the Lord above, had the right to exercise-became, in the course of the nineteenth century, one of the first conducts to enter into the sphere of sociological analysis; it testified to the individual and private right to die, at the borders and in the interstices of power that was exercised over life. This determination to die, strange and yet so persistent and constant in its manifestations, and consequently so difficult to explain as being due to particular circumstances or individual accidents, was one of the first astonishments of a society in which political power had assigned itself the task of administering life. – Michel Foucault

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